Confession Stories 6

English Translation

‘one, twenty two

she said, “count one to ten”, when my memories are extant.

one.

two. - two hands.

three. four.

five - my memories decided to dive. five and clueless, the touched was endless. gifts and candies exchange to silence.

six.

seven

eight. - eight and pure, i thought i was secure.

nine.

ten. i fell into the sea of pain.

“keep going”

eleven.

twelve. twelve and confused, four hands abused. mouth sealed shut when they shouted slut.

thirteen

fourteen

fifteen. forced to feel what i feel, they said I was a meal, i thought it was real.

every reveal only to be repealed. “why?”

“you asked for it.”

fuck.

sixteen.

seventeen.

eighteen.

nineteen.

twenty.

twenty one.

twenty two.

they were cruel.

i want to die. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

- P0ettic’

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Malay Translation

Satu, dua puluh dua.

Dia kata, “hitung satu hingga sepuluh”, apabila memori aku masih kekal.

Satu.

dua. - dua tangan.

tiga. empat.

lima - memori aku mulai berkecai. lima dan kabur, sentuhan itu masih diteruskan. hadiah dan gula-gula bertukar dengan kesenyapan.

enam.

tujuh.

lapan. lapan dan suci, aku ingatkan selamat.

sembilan.

sepuluh. aku terjatuh ke dalam lautan kesakitan.

“teruskan”

sebelas.

dua-belas. dua-belas dan keliru, empat tangan didera, mulut ditutupi pabila mereka menjerit perempuan sundal

tiga-belas

empat belas

lima belas. aku dipaksa untuk merasakan ini, mereka mengatakan aku ialah hidangan mereka. aku ingatkan ini benar. setiap bongkaran hanyalah untuk dibatalkan. “mengapa?” “kau yang mintakan”

fuck

tujuh belas

lapan belas.

sembilan belas

dua puluh

dua puluh satu.

dua puluh dua.

mereka kejam.

aku nak mati.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

- P0ettic’